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[03 Jan 2003|05:15pm] |
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Do you remember |
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Oh goodness! Why does this always happen? I went for a change, and I came out looking like a strawberry!!! To make matters worse, while I was waiting for the dye to settle in, the color felt as though it was eating through my scalp! Ahhh, it's burning ...BURNING!! You'd think after 30 years of experience, the hair stylist would know these things...apparently not. I wanted a light brown, but I came out with a candy red. But that's okay. Nothing that can't be fixed.
On a different topic, wow how things change in a matter of day. Oh, I hope things work out. I guess I'm just a bit paranoid.
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| Woah, how did this happen? |
[23 Dec 2002|09:34pm] |
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Feel like stuffing! ^_^ |
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I Don't Care |
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Hmmmm, very interesting turn of events.
How did this happen?
Oh wait, I told my friend, who told him, and somehow, everyone knew.
It was so scary when I walked into the room, and I held everyone's stares...everyone's eyes were fixed on me, and my situation. They knew, and made sure that I knew it. It made my knees shake, and my heart pound a thousand times faster. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to run out of there, away...far far away. I didn't want to face it.
But thank goodness for my friend, who always knows what to say, and calmed me down.
It was time. After much hesitation, and persuasion, I headed down the dark stairwell...down to face what I was afraid of, down to what I wanted, moving while nervous and excited.
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| School's out! |
[18 Dec 2002|06:51pm] |
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Hurrah! Fall term is over! No more finals!
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| It's finally over |
[19 Nov 2002|11:22am] |
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At first sight |
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Well, midterms at least. Now onto finals.
It was quite amusing. The other day my friend and I were engaged in a rather entertaining chat on the topic of boyfriends and their behavior.
I found out a lot of things that I would have never thought of before. Boy, boys are smart.
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| Oh when will it end?!?! |
[12 Nov 2002|04:52pm] |
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Feel like miso soup ^_^ |
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Here and Now |
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*sigh* midterm time.
When will it end? It seems like it never will.
But that's okay. I only have two more to go. Thank goodness.
Oh, it was the most embarrassing thing.
There's this guy who likes me. Yes the weird samuri-guy who can't flirt. Yup that would be the one.
Well after sushi on Friday, my friends decided to drive me home, and lo-and-behold, that guy comes into the car with us.
Even worse, with the horrible road conditions and having to fill up gas and the tires 3 times, not to mention getting lost, I got home after 2 hours!
During the car ride, my friend repeatedly mentioned how he was enjoying the delayed ride because he got to sit next to me. I, of course, tried to change the subject. And while he was singing songs (which really scared me) she remarked, "are you trying to serenade her?"
Man, that was pretty embarrassing!
Everyone keeps asking me to give him a chance. Ummmmm, I don't know about that one *cough*cough*.
He's a nice guy and all, but I don't think I could handle him.
He'd drive me insane. Especially with all his mean jokes!
But I kinda feel sorry for him. He's liked me since tenth grade.
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| IT'S A MARICLE! |
[07 Nov 2002|11:49am] |
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Feel like lunch.I'm hungry ^_^ |
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Simple and clean |
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What happened to those good o' days. The ones where only you only had a couple of hours of homework each night?
On a side note, I'm SHOCKED.
That BAD FLIRT actually cut his hair...it's a maricle!!!
Utterly AMAZING.
Boy what a good hair-cut can do for a person. I think he needed it. So it's all good now. I think he really needs to take MACKING lessons though, he's very week in that area.
Anyways, must go ...tah tah.
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| HORRIFIC flirt |
[23 Oct 2002|08:26pm] |
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Feel like tarimisu (MmmmMMm) |
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You set me free |
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Why do midterms have to be so hard?
"Oh well. Tough. Study harder next time." Yup, we've all heard that one before =p
Hmmm, let me pose this question to the male counterpart. "If you like a girl, would you make fun of her until the point of her frustration?"
~ I sure hope not.
I'm unsure of it myself, but the joy from aggravating someone, especially someone you have a crush on does not make sense to me.
Remarks such as, "You can be something special. You'll be the first female SUMO WRESTLER." and "STOP EATING. You never lose your appetite. What am I talking about?" and "You're so fat, here, have a slim-fast bar!" are not what I call flattering.
I think he's such an awful flirt.
He needs to take lessons.
Ha ha, oh well.
Since his hair is really long, he once tied his hair up in two buns! (yup, just like on SailorMoon) and proclaimed, "I'M A SAMURI!" ODD FELLOW.
*chuckles*
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| Boy I have issues ^_^ |
[09 Oct 2002|10:43pm] |
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I feel like hot chocolate! Mmm |
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Nothing's like before |
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Yup, it's true. I have issues. I'm eighteen years old, and I still run when I see my crush. How silly. My friend was advising me that nothing gets done when you run away, and I'm actually starting to see that now.
*chuckles* It was the cutest thing. Today after my lecture ended, my friend was waiting for my crush to turn around while saying aloud "Turn around dammit!!!" (Might I add, I was petrified AND embarrassed). While I was packing up, I looked down, and suddenly he turned around, and my friend yelled at me "Oh he's SO HOT! GOOD JOB! I love his hair!" and proceeded to hi-five me in the auditorium. Although my cheeks were burning, I must admit that was very cute. o^_^o
Ahh, I love my friends. And I thank God for them. They always know how to make me feel better.
Hehe, you know what? I saw him today, the X.
And I didn't even care!!! It's probably 'cause I was thinking of "someone else" *wink*wink*nudge*nudge*
So I've come to the conclusion I'M OVER HIM!
HURRAH!!!
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| HELP! MY HEART IS BREAKING!!!! =*( |
[06 Oct 2002|07:18pm] |
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My kind of girl |
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Man, o' man. Why do these things always come back to haunt me. I just want to be free. He called again, the X. Yeah, and he told me he still loves me. Argh, MOMMA NOOOOOOOOOO!!! I can't do this again. It ruined my life, it ruined me! It took me a trip half-way around the world to paradise to recover. I don't know. I just get so sad when I talk to him. Plus, the fact that his X is dating my cousin isn't helping either. (HELP HELP! WHY? WHY?) This is just getting TOO WEIRD! Why don't I like it? BECAUSE IT'S WEIRD! I know I have to grow up, but I'm worried about my cousin. I don't want him to get hurt again, I don't think his heart could take it again.
I guess I'll just keep quiet. He's a grown man. But I still am worried about it. She's so young, although she'd probably fool you 'cause she looks so mature. Man that's like me dating a 30 year old. *sigh* ha ha, I can't see that happening.
Oh well. But I have a plan. I'm gonna try extra extra hard to forget about him. I need to meet new people.
Man, who would have ever thought that being 18 would be so confusing. I thought it would be the same as 17. But nope, it's not.
Hmmm, but on a side note, I think it's time for a change. I'm gonna work on it.
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| I'm doing just fine |
[04 Oct 2002|10:19pm] |
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Cute girl ("it's a very good song") |
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"I'm doing just fine". That's the title of one of my favorite songs by BoysIIMen. And it's true. I am doing just fine. Today was a very interesting day. I saw Him again, once. My best friend said that he looked like some kind of actor. Well, it's no wonder. =p *Looking up, BLUSHING*
I accomplished quite a lot today. I feel satisfied. However, I have so much to catch up on. I'm scared just thinking about it. During my organic chem lab, (which, may I add SMELLS! Even with my cold, I could smell right through it. It's more powerful than WASABI!) I actually forgot that it was a Friday! That's awful! As a student it's a psuedo-instinct that you can tell when it's Friday. You just know. Something must be off. *scratches head* I wonder what?
You know what I really miss on Fridays?
TGIF. Yes I am a big TV buff. I remember going over to my cousin Angela's house on Fridays and we'd lay on her parent's bed and eat chips while watching Step-By-Step and Boy Meets World. Boy those where the days. Now she's all grown up, and on Friday's she goes out partying or to her boyfriend's. Well, I guess that makes sense, she's almost 21.
*chuckles* I still try to stay home and watch some TV. Personally, I don't think that there's very good shows on television these days. They've lost a lot of the good quality shows, and replaced them with fluff.
However I miss watching 20/20, especially at my old house where I'd watch it until I'd fall asleep. Barbara Walters, now she's a great role model. I love investigative reporting. It's so intriguing. ^_^
Yeah, so I've been doing some thinking. Talking to my girls and I figure that I'll be alright, and that I'm holding out well right now.
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| WORD! |
[03 Oct 2002|08:56pm] |
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Ready for a hug ^_^ |
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I'm so thankful for friends. *phew* without them, I'd still be stressing about the homework that's due tomorrow.
Oh, that reminds me. I have a lab due tomorrow. Ah, GOTTA GO!
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| Life's funny. ^_^ |
[02 Oct 2002|08:44pm] |
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Try to move on |
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I suppose I've been having one of those contemplative-oh-so-that's-why-that-happened phases. The past few months have been been life-altering. In the end, I guess I've become less sheltered, and perhaps a little more grown-up. I've learnt that first impressions only go so far (in fact, in the end, THEY MEAN DIDLEY-SQUAT!), and that you must get to know a person's real nature before attaching your heart and emotions to them. *chuckles* I guess I sound a little cynical, perhaps a bit bitter, but I guess writing my thoughts are helping during my "moving-on-to-bigger-and-better-things" journey. I've calmed down a notch, and I've realized a lot of things in the past couple of weeks. If you know who you are, it doesn't matter what other people think of you, especially if they've never met you.
*shakes head* relationships are kind of funny, in fact, LIFE's kind of funny. Oftentimes, the one you care for the most will be the one that hurts you most deeply. After my trip to Ottawa, I've once again realized what I've accomplished and who I am to others and myself. My faith has been renewed and I'm energized to start taking charge of my life again!
On a side note, I'm so thankful for best friends. They're always there when you need them the most. Even at a time when you try to convince yourself that you can handle it on your own, there they are, ready and willing with a smile, and a DARN good joke.
It's true that this is probably not one of the most entertaining journal entries, but I think that's okay. I guess everyone has their MOODS once and a while.
When it all boils down, THINGS ARE LOOKING UP. My friend was talking with me a few days ago and told me that the best remedy was to do things for yourself after a breakup. But I've been thinking for myself, and I think the best thing to do is to help others who need it, and at the same time it'll make me grow as a person. So that's my plan, I guess I'll be working on a TON of projects now. But I know the end result will be worth it.
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| OH what a world ...what a world! |
[30 Sep 2002|10:56pm] |
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*Sigh* If life was a piece of cake I suppose the most suitable representation of mine would be a FRUIT CAKE. No, not a simple pound cake, nor a sweet and dreamy one made of ice cream, but a fruit cake. Yes, yes, it is an odd analogy. Perhaps, you should first understand my situation before you judge me as an odd-ball.
And what a story it is.
Life has been absolutely crazy lately. So many new and indescribable things being hurled at me. DUCK! MOVE AWAY! RUN FOR COVER! Ouch! Darn it! Too bad, I got hit in the face, unfortunately. In some ways, in the heart as well.
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